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Clearing the webs..

kantangdj — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 15:48:37 +0000

It’s been long. Really long. Don’t remember being away from my blog for more than 6 months like this.

6 whole months.

I went through the last examinations as a full time student.

I won a pair of air tickets to Taiwan and brought my Mum to taste travelling beyond Malaysia.

I finished numerous dramas.

I fretted over job hunting, cried after a bad interview, yet was offered the job.

I jumped on the bandwagon of new media journalism without having any idea about it.

I struggled learning and picking up skills (including bitching) at work.

I finally welcomed the day of his return and just felt like the separation was just a dream, which brought us closer together.

I donned on the gown and mortar board, walked up the stage for my own 30s of fame and convocated in the presence of the ones I hold dearest to.

I began paying for the tuition fee loan, drained up my savings, and managing the remaining not-so-disposable income every month.

I had to remind myself constantly to live like a poor student and not overspend.

Yet because of media perks I bought myself a new camera, which I haven’t even got the time to test out all its functions.

I put on weight.

I start to manage life between work, rest, love, family, friends and more.

I even joined in Cheerleading for work place’s Games Day and created a fabulous memory of my worklife.

I wished and still is wishing, to have my own nest with my loved one.

Right now I just wish to be happier. And I also wish to love my job more.

kantangdj — Thu, 14 Apr 2011 06:59:45 +0000

又没事了！！！

做么他可以忍受我那么多啊，惭愧。

不过他倒真的得对老娘好一点啦。哈哈！！！

倒数90天。

kantangdj — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 11:14:34 +0000

This time it’s me who needs to keep out.

Same old problem, happens too frequently.

Not for the weak hearted.

But I am one.

So, T-sign.

kantangdj — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 10:57:56 +0000

很像是我把事情弄得复杂。

可是实际上，基本的爱情需求实现不到。

距离，越来越远。

kantangdj — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 10:44:50 +0000

一个需要被爱的人很悲哀。

一个不善表达的人很自私。

所以，这两种人是不是不适合？

kantangdj — Sun, 10 Apr 2011 10:34:23 +0000

仿佛，在沟通关于“沟通”时，也出现了问题。

原来，需要一个什么来寄托，是一种禁忌。

需要，好像也是禁忌。

需要被别人需要，是一个更大的禁忌。

只能默默彷徨。

默默压制。

默默流泪。

默默放空。

默默，习惯。

kantangdj — Thu, 17 Mar 2011 12:56:51 +0000

Strangely, when I worried so much (very obvious from the posts below) about how things are gonna be back to normal, things just fall back in place nicely and life’s good all over again.

I guess faith is the key.

118 days to go, go go go!

kantangdj — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 07:23:02 +0000

Honestly I’m so scared that keeping out this time will end up keeping out forever.

But this time, I’ll throw in all my faith, belief, strength.

Because we are really better than this.

Meanwhile, I’ll prove that I’m not weak.

kantangdj — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 07:09:49 +0000

I saw YJ’s status saying:

“Everything is alright in the end. If it’s not alright, then it’s not the end.”

So, all for the day when everything will be alright again, I can wait, wait not in pain but in faith.

I can wait forever, as long as it’s worth the wait.

kantangdj — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 07:00:50 +0000

I’m horribly envious of the hall people who will be visiting him in Lyon, because they get to, and he looks forward to.

I can only blame myself for not being rich enough.

What can I do, I’m so envious, my nose turns sour every time I think of this.